𝐹𝓁𝒶𝓂𝑒 ( COMPLETED )

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My sight was so blurry and i could barely tell apart people who were standing around me .

" It's me , Ruya open your eyes " mehmed's soothing voice immediately woke me up . His hand was rested on my cheek and his other one placed on my hand . 

I managed to sit my self up and inspected my surroundings . Nurbahar , firuze were standing in the corner and the nurse was standing on the corner of my bed

" You are scaring me why are you looking at me like this " i said looking at their sad expressions . I started panicking ,i felt lost

" We will tell you but first i don't want you to freak out or get scared okay " mehmed said cupping my face with his hands . I quietly nodded and looked over at the nurse

" Sultanim , i have checked you after your sudden faint and i can confirm that you are two months pregnant " i smiled at her news but no one seemed to share this happiness .

" Isn't this something i should be happy about " i said looking at their faces , mehmed had his eyes lowered .

" But - this pregnancy isn't safe at all . It can cost your life if you wanna keep the baby , it isn't normally developped and it can cause you a lot of problems and even the baby won't be able to make it to the fifth month " my heart suddenly stopped beating and adrenaline rushed throught my veins

I felt like the my whole world stopped for a minute mehmed's grip tightened on my hand

" What is she saying ? Is this true " i asked mehmed and his face said it all ,he felt so heartbroken .

" this is why we would undergo an abortion today , i didn't wanna do anything until your highness knew about it " the nurse said not looking into my eyes  .

My face immediately changed and tears started falling down my cheeks and i burried it in my hands .

" You can go "mehmed said to the people who were in my room ,after the door closed he pulled my hands away and pulled me into a hug .

" I know this is hard to accept but i want you to be safe , your safety comes first to me " he said stroking my hair gently .

" you may think this is easy ,i'm not ready to give up on the child . This was so sudden and i don't know what to think anymore " i said between my cries .

" you're not giving up on him , you're saving your life . If he cannot be born in this life he will live a happier life in heaven and we can have many kids in the future and you know that " i pulled away from the hug and looked at the ceiling for some seconds then shifted my eyes to his

" i - i need time i can't take a subtle decision " i said trying to hold my tears back .

" I am not ready to lose any of you but i know you're gonna be a mom again . And ibrahim still needs you i won't permit for you to go or do something that endangers your life " mehmed said looking straight into my eyes

" Now think about it and let me know " he was so devastated and i hated to see him like this . He placed a kiss on my forehead before he left my room , but before he left i noticed a tears he wipped away quickly .

When the door closed i just realised how dangerous my decision would be . Being  a mother was the best thing i was ever blessed with a now letting go of a part of me was not easy .

But I needed time , to rearrange my mind and make up my mind to take a decision that will cause less harm to everyone around me .

I have been throught a lot but this was probably the hardest thing i would've ever passed throught .

I got up from my bed and walked towards the mirror , seeing my reflection flashed so many things in my head . I should've been in this place 6 months from now on waiting to give birth but instead i'll be still crying

I moved away from the mirror and asked the maid to bring ibrahim to my room . Seeing him brought to me lightened my heart with joy , i grabbed him in my arms and gave him the tightest hug ever .

Oh my god i haven't updated in two months 😶😶😶