Soulmates

HAPPY NEW YEAR

i am aware of the fact that it has been 2022 for a few days now
leave me alone

i just wanted to take a moment to talk about how i've grown and how this story has grown

we need to start from the beginning

i originally wrote Soulmates when i was 11 and in 6th grade

this is during that age when you realize races exist and sexualities exist and when you start to learn more about your family

my family is Puerto Rican but white passing and my bio dad (aka my sperm donor as my family likes to call him) is black

my stepdad and the person i call my father is also black but he doesn't see his family since they don't have a good relationship with anyone other than my aunt

so you can see how i will see something odd going on

but i also realized that my sperm donor abandoned me after the divorce and that fucked me up

i was also so used to my family being white hispanics that i considered myself to be one as well, which i am, just not fully.

you can see that kind of divide in my writing when i first did Soulmates (before i remade it into what you currently see) i was also questioning but my parents never really mentioned the LGBT community because it was never a big deal to them so they never really had a conversation about it until my moms friend had a girlfriend.

that's why the first version of Soulmates was so white and heteronormative i wasn't embracing myself and sexuality and only really embraced language diversity with Hearth and it was done TERRIBLY

then i moved from my childhood home to a new place and during the move my best friend told me that i was a bitch (i don't blame her but it still hurt) and ditched me which sent me into a spiraling depression but i was still writing THEN my other bestie just ghosted me

i stopped updating after that

now, in 2020 i go on over to wattpad for the meme and see that people wanted me to update

i was still writing in my own time but i never really committed to anything before so i decided to do this so that i start something and finish it

so i was just planning on picking up where i left off a
which made me reread what i wrote

bitches, when i tell you that shit was bad i mean a five year old would read that shit and want to burn it

so i started it over

at this time i was okay with my racial identity and stopped keeping them separate and started battling my family when they said some racist shit but i still hadn't embraced who i was in terms of my sexuality

that's why 90% of the ships when i started were straight

then i found out ✨women✨ and Shel appeared from my awakening then i started writing about her so much because i see myself in her a lot

even though she is purely hispanic and really wanted her to be close to her culture and sexuality and she's this sweet and sarcastic person who always holds shit in which will eventually prove to be to her downfall and i love her so much because of this

now let's go to my characterization

y'all

why the fuck did i make Annabeth a loner and kind of an ass when i started this? it is so out of character i don't know what i was thinking

and SADIE USED TO BE THAT ONE BITCH WHO WOULD FLIRT WITH EVERY GUY SHE CAME ACROSS BEFORE I REMADE THIS

OH MY GOD I HATE YOUNG ME

anyway now i know that representation in smaller ways still works. i'm learning ASL so i can eventually have Hearth come into the story and i'm trying to do more research on other religions so i can add Sam into the story and stuff

i still use google translate for spanish because when i tried to get into a class it was f u l l and my family can't teach shit so i'm on my own

anyway i am going to try to finish Soulmates by the end of the year and start focusing on my original

on another note REMEMBER WHEN I SAID MY FROEND WANTED ME YO FIND XOCS FOR THEM IN THE DSMP FANDOM??

I WENT INTO Y/N SHOT FOR THEM AND I SENT HER SOME OF THE VERY FEW THE WERE BEARABLE

AND THIS BITCH SAID OH NO I WANTED OT TO BE PLATONIC AND I THOUGHT YOU GOING TO WRITE IT

WHEN I TELL YOU I WANTED TO SCREAM

I WAS SO MAD

anyway now i'm going to write a platonic xoc for them because they're still awesome

that's all for today happy new year and

love y'all!!!!