how have i gone so far away?
i'm so young at my age.
there is no one i can face
and pretend i don't hate.
the ground i'm walking on,
the bed i'm sleeping in,
the thoughts they depend on
the feeling i'm closing in.
how the sunset is so grey,
the sunrise so bright white?
how can i know my fate,
how can i see through the dark.
only disappointing faces,
only tiring distances.
only lies on sufaces,
only full places.
borrow my pen and change my writing,
no more believe in positivity.
borrow my mind and change my thinking,
no more attacked by negativity.
hold my hand and see
the sea so deep.
seems like there's hole in my chest,
once i was trying my best.
can't look my friend in the eyes,
she lied to me more than once.
actions show all the lies,
because communication dies.
everything i need is not here,
everything i want is nowhere near.
how can i be me
in the crowd of enemies?
