Would it be gay if...?/Jilix

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"Why are your eyes so puffy?" Jisung asked Felix the next morning at school

"I didn't sleep well" Felix replied, although that was only half of the truth. After he got home from his mom's he cried out of stress for hours, but he didn't want Jisung to know about that part

He told himself that he wouldn't cheat on Jisung, he knew that doing that would make the whole situation ten times worse than it already was but he was trying to find another way to convince Paul to not tell Jisung anything without making him cheat

Chan and Changbin were looking at Felix and were extremely concerned. They still had no idea what was happening but it was now at the point that they needed to tell Jisung something. If Jisung knew that something was really wrong maybe he could somehow get Felix to tell him. They just had to get Jisung to realize that he shouldn't trust Felix as much as he does, which sucks because he should be able to trust Felix as much as he does but sadly he can't

"We can take a nap when we get to my house after school" Jisung said to Felix with a small smile

"Okay" Felix said softly as he leaned onto Jisung's shoulder, the nauseating feeling of guilt taking over his whole body as he did

~time skip to Felix's lunch~

"Please tell us what is going on with you" Chan said to Felix once all three of them were sitting down together

"I already told you guys that it's nothing, I'm fine" Felix said as he forced a smile to try to convince that he was telling the truth

"No your not" Changbin replied to him as he rolled his eyes "We are going to tell Jisung that something is wrong with you if you don't tell us whatever it is so we can help you"

"What are you even going to tell him? You guys don't know anything because there is nothing for you guys to know"Felix replied

"You're right we don't know anything but it's because you are being stubborn, it's definitely something so that's exactly what we are going to tell him"

"Please don't" Felix said quietly, his voice breaking a bit. He did not want Jisung to be worried about him on top of everything else he had going on right now

But maybe that was exactly what he needed and he just didn't realize it yet

"Are we supposed to just silently watch you struggle with whatever you are dealing with without trying to help? You aren't only hurting yourself, you are worrying us too and this whole situation seems to be something you enjoy getting yourself into because it's not the first time you've made us worried sick" Changbin explained and Felix sighed

Before Felix could say anything else the bell rang and he felt anxious watching Chan and Changbin walk away knowing that they were going to tell Jisung something. ' Jisung won't believe them right? I hope not' he thought to himself as he walked to his next class

~~~time skip to after school~~~

"Hi Sungie" Felix said as he hugged Jisung, he didn't know if Chan or Changbin told him anything but he didn't want to seem suspicious if they did

"Hey" Jisung said as he hugged him back then grabbed his hand as they walked to Jisung's house in complete silence which scared Felix. Normally Jisung would start some kind of conversation but he didn't

They eventually got to Jisung's house and once Jisung closed the door to his room he finally decided to start a conversation

"You've been feeling sick a lot recently" Jisung said as he sat next to Felix on his bed and Felix tensed up slightly, not knowing exactly where Jisung was going with this

"Yeah... didn't you say we could take a nap when we got to your house?" Felix asked, trying to change the subject

"We will. I just have a quick question first" Jisung said as he turned to face Felix and grabbed both sides of his face so that he would make eye contact which was scaring Felix

'Chan and Changbin definitely said something to him' Felix thought to himself as his breath got uneven because of his nervousness

"Are you okay? I know you told me that you are just tired but Chan and Changin are worried and they said that I should be too so I just want to make sure"

"I'm fine" Felix said simply

"Are you sure?"

"Mhm"

"Okay, that's good" Jisung said as he kissed Felix's forehead gently and made them both lay down on the bed as he started playing with Felix's hair "We can take a nap now. I just wanted to make sure that I shouldn't be worried about anything"

Felix fell asleep within minutes and Jisung pulled out his phone to text Chan and Changbin

He sent a text explaining that Felix said he's fine and that he trusts he wouldn't break his promise and if something was wrong Felix would have told him. Then he put his phone down and looked at Felix who was sleeping peacefully

'His eyes do look a bit puffy for it to just be from lack of sleep though... maybe that's just normal for him' Jisung thought as he tried to reassure himself

He then placed his hand on the side of Felix's face and lightly rubbed his thumb over his cheek 'I really do miss his freckles. Maybe I can convince him to stop wearing makeup everyday'

Jisung wrapped his arms around Felix's waist and cuddled close to him

"I love you a lot" Jisung said quietly before he fell asleep with Felix in his arms

Everything seemed perfect to Jisung. Other than some small things such as not seeing Felix's freckles for weeks but other than that he thought everything was fine because that's what Felix told him.

But it really wasn't and if he needed to realize that soon. Trust is extremely important in a relationship but when it's one-sided it can be blinding

The amount of times I rewrote this chapter is sad