Disappointed

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The next day I woke up to go to school.
6:30
Ok I have enough time. I went downstairs to eat food to see all of my brothers surprised I was even eating.
" what r u looking at " I said rolling my eyes
They all pretended to mind their own Buissness but I knew they were looking at me.

I ate a little bit of a protein bar and then I couldn't eat anymore.
"Callie u barely ate anything, eat some more" Brayden said
" nah I can't, I don't wanna puke" I said
I got ready for school and hopped in the car.
" you better not be vaping! I didn't give u a punishment yet , this evening I will" Tate said.

We arrived at school  and I met Indiana and Tom . We walked to the field to talk but I then saw brayden . Ugh.
" yo make sure she eats and has a lot of water, if anything find me" he said
I was so embarrassed.
" what's he talking abt?" Tom said
" ugh stupid brothers" I replied
The day went by really fast. I got home and saw Tate and Cole sitting on the counter.
" I found more vapes" they said . They we're questioning me on how to use them.
" how do u use that?" Cole asked
" yeah C, show us" tate said.
Uk what? Gladly, I wanted one more hit of my blue raz .
" you asked for it" I said
I took a big hit and closed my eyes. I inhaled it and blew out a lot of smoke.
"Wow, so cool" tate said
I rolled my eyes.
" why did u start? When" Cole questioned
" omg please , not now ," I said
I walked up to my room and dropped my bag and fell asleep

I woke up at 6pm. The boys were watching Batman on the couch.
" they princess is finally awake" Max said
I ran and jumped on the couch. On top of Cole and Brayden.
" Daym you gained a lot of weight" Brayden said
I rolled my eyes and ran upstairs. Tears fell down my cheek
" Dude she was in a good mood and I had to talk to her abt smth. Now she won't talk." Cole and tate said.
" my b I'll talk to her" bray said.

I heard a knock on my door.
" can I come in?" Brayden said
" Watevr " I said
" look I'm sorry, I was jk . I was planning on sneaking out to a party tn. Wanna come?" He asked
"YEA" I said as I hugged him
"When I knock on ur door around 10pm, jump out ur window"
"Ok"I said

I walked back downstairs.
" now will u explain the vapes and blade?" Cole questioned whilst turning off the tv.
" ok look, after mom and dad died I didn't know how to cope. So I resorted to vaping. After the "incident" happened, I vaped to keep me sane and awake" the faces they made , jaw dropped.
" what is so cool abt it" Cole said as he took a hit and chocked .
He was dying and I was laughing my ass off.
" how tf" Cole sighed
" like this," I said as I took a big hit
"Ahhhhh " I said as I put my head down on the floor.
" ok keep the vape, I can't bother with you" Vole said , " the blade?"
I was so suprised. I didn't say anything.
"Uhhhhhh" I said
" show me your wrists" Tate said
I rolled them up and nothing.
" Don't think I'm stupid , your thighs" Tate shouted.
I moved back and attempted to get back and run upstairs. I felt water dripping down my cheeks
" NOW CALLIE, SHOW ME YOUR FUCKING THIGHS" Tate screamed almost breaking my ear drum. I started to cry.
" look I'm sorry, but we have to see them" Cole said
" go away" I whispered
Tate pulled down my pants to see scars all over my stomach and thighs and butt.
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"OH calllie , what are you doing to yourself

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"OH calllie , what are you doing to yourself." Cole said

" self harm is for the WEAK CALLIE, FOR PEOPLE WHO DONT CARE ABT WETHER OR NOT THEY LIVE OR DIE. STOP DOING THIS BS, I DONT WANNA BE KNOWN AS SOMEONE RELATED TO A WEAK, Suicidal, emo girl!!" Tate shouted

I felt so embarrassed, I didn't hold back the tears and commentary.
" EVEN IF I FUCKING DIED , YOU WOULDNT EVEN FUCKUNG CARE, WEN I WAS RAPED , IF HOPMUS ACTUALLY STABBED ME AND HAD SEX WITH MY DEAD LIFELESS BODY YOU WOULD NOT CARE. BR IN MY POSITION, I HAVE FOUR IKDER BROTHERS WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO CARE FOR ME BUT THERES ALWAYS THE FUCK UP. Yk wat.IM FUCKUNG DONE WITH U. If I killed my self ... would you even care?" I sighed letting all my feelings out.
" I couldn't care less" Tate said
Wow . I cannot believe him
I ran up crying with Brayden chasing after me.
" WHY WOULD U SAY THAT IF UK ITS NOT TRUE." Cole shouted
I took a hit of my vape and blew it up.
" Cals , give it to me" bray said
" y ? U want a hit?" I asked
" maybe , your shaking" he replied.

Tate came to apologize, but I didn't listen. I pretended as if I was asleep.

10 mins late I got changed for the party.
I heard a knock on the door . It was Brayden
" Jump" he whispered "I'm running out the front , meet u there"

I jumped ...

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