Soulmates

11

When I got inside I ignored everyone and went upstairs. I didn't have the energy to keep myself together anymore. I just wanted to go to bed.

"V?" Ki called out as I jogged up the stairs. When I got to my room I threw myself onto the bed then got under the covers. "Violet? What happened?" Ki asked as she came into the room. "It's nothing." I said and turned my back to her.

"No. What the fuck did Colby do?" She asked angrily as I groaned. "He didn't do anything!" I groaned as she sighed. "Okay, I'm gonna go kill him." She said then turned and left the room.

I turned to stop her but she was gone before I could. I just sighed and pulled the covers over my head. I didn't know how to feel. He tried to kiss me right? Or was I just imagining that because I wanted it to happen.

No. I didn't want it to happen.

I didn't want to come in between him and his girlfriend the way that Jordan came in between us all those months ago.

I laid there for a while, my mind racing, until the door opened. "V..." Ki said as she came in. "Sleeping." I mumbled as she scoffed and walked over.

"Don't do that." She said then pulled the covers back. "Is she his girlfriend?" I asked as she shook her head. "I don't know, V. I'm not who you should be asking." She said as I frowned.

"I don't want him to hurt me." I whispered as she hugged me. "I know. I hope you know that if he does I'm gonna kick his ass." She said as I nodded. "I know. Don't do that though, none of this is his fault." I said and sat up.

"No, but it's not yours either." Ki said as I scrubbed my face with my hands. "I don't know what to do." I said and looked at her. "Follow your heart." She said simply causing me to laugh. "I don't have one of those anymore." I said and rubbed my chest.

My heart had been through a lot both physically and metaphorically in the past year. I was surprised I haven't gone into cardiac arrest yet.

"Shut the fuck up. You're so dumb." Ki said and punched my arm gently. "It's been a long day, don't stress too much. We're gonna have some fun with everyone tomorrow." She said as I nodded. "What are we doing?" I asked then laid down again. "I have no idea but it's gonna be fun." She said then stood up.

"Get some sleep. I'll see you tomorrow." She said then walked towards the door. "Goodnight, Ki." I said then pulled the covers over my shoulder again.

It didn't take long for me to fall asleep since I was exhausted. Before I knew it the sun was out and Ki was jumping on my bed.

"Wake up! We're going to an amusement park!" She yelled and jumped up and down. "I'm not in the mood to be amused." I groaned and pulled the covers over my head.

"Come on, V. It'll be fun! Don't you love the thrill of roller coasters?" She asked and yanked the covers back. "Yeah I guess." I said with a sigh. "I know it's gonna be hard...but we're all here for you. Just try to let loose and have fun." She said as I got out of bed.

"Maybe I shouldn't go..I don't want to be a wet blanket." I said and brought my hand to my grandma's necklace. "Like I said I know it's gonna be hard, but you aren't going to be a wet blanket." She said as I turned to grab something to wear.

"Alright." I said then grabbed my clothes and went towards the bathroom.

I didn't necessarily want to go out and act like everything was normal but I knew my grandma would have wanted me to have fun. She wouldn't want me to dwell on her death.

She was with my parents and papa. She was in a better place. I had to keep pushing on with my life and be with the ones I loved, even if I didn't feel up to it.