the stars were in your eyes 💫 - poetry

her venom, my venom

i hate my jealousy

she is an embodiment of my fury
and of my loneliness,
of the overwhelming guilt that i carry
and of my ever-longing sadness.

i hate that she makes me feel as though
i am drowning
and i am burning,
that i am screaming for help
and accepting my fate
all at once.

her fangs pang my soul
they don't just scratch the surface,
the cling to me,
burrowing themselves deep into my body
marking my soul.

the jealously seeps into my blood,
and like a virus
it floods my brain
and it burns in my heart.

i scream but she takes away my voice.
i cry but she has dried me from my tears.

so now the envy fuels in my body
whilst the hatred takes over my mind.
it's like a never ending spiral
which i shall fall down for eternity.

i have been struck with jealously,

and i swear it's even more lonely
than ever actually being alone.