the stars were in your eyes 💫 - poetry

my sweet little child

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one day you will wake up
and you will find the courage that you've been searching for

you will make your bed
you will brush your teeth
you will eat your breakfast
you will drink your orange juice

and you'll tell your mother you are hurting
that you are broken in ways that no one could ever imagine

you will not cry as you speak
you have cried enough tears now
there are none left
just the ever-longing sadness
and the emptiness you carry with you

you will tell her about your pain
how it's been like this for so long
she will look at you with sorrow
and she'll pull you into a warm hug
she will rub along your back
and she'll plant a kiss a top your head

you will cry into her chest
your mascara will stain her shirt
she will not mind
she will hold you

she will tell you it's okay
that she will help you
she'll help her sweet little child
doing her best to protect you
thought it's too late
you've already been exposed

and this cruel world
it's hurt you
harmed you
nearly as much as your own thoughts

she'll tell you to take a seat
she will sit facing you
looking into your teary eyes
whilst she will fight her own tears
she won't let you know she is scared
that she is worried for you

she will nod
she will do her best to help
your hand will fall into hers
both as shaky as the other

neither of you will speak
not for a short while anyway
the silence is comforting
it's enough to show she cares
you'll smile
and she will too

she will call you her sweet little child
she always has
and she always will

you don't feel little anymore
nor do you feel sweet

you feel bitter
like salt in an open wound

and when you go to bed that night
she will come up with you

she will brush your hair behind your ear
and place a kiss on your forehead
you will lay under your covers
she will tuck you in
keeping you safe
in an attempt to protect you from the world and all the horrors she hasn't been able to keep you from

she will caress your cheek
and you'll here those familiar words again

goodnight my sweet little child
she will say softly as she leaves your
bedroom

she will leave the door open just a crack
she knows your scared of the dark

you will sleep that night
and you won't wake up numerous times as you normally do
no
this night will be different
you'll feel a sense of peace
you won't feel tears in your eyes
but a small spark of happiness in your soul

you are her sweet little child again