i guess i've always struggled with these thoughts
i guess i've always wanted to disappear
to die
to finally be at peace
to remove myself from existencei mean god, i tried too
but it didn't change anythingi'm still here,
i'm alive
i'm living.
maybe not living
but i am survivingand i still have these thoughts
they run
they race...
through my heart
through my soul
through my mindit's like they never really left
i guess deep down
i've always known it
and i think...
i think i'll always want to dieor maybe
just maybei don't.
and instead
there's apart of me i want to kill
to removethat will make me free.
perhaps i won't have to survive
and maybe
just maybe
i can start living.
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the stars were in your eyes 💫 - poetry
Poetrypoetry is one thing that keeps me alive, it keeps me going so here are my poems that i wrote when things felt especially hard 💫