The Raven - Born Out The Earth

Raven's Safe Haven

I somehow manage to escape his arms and lock myself back in my room. Not that the lock was working but at least I wasn't zapped with currents and do nothing about it the entire day. It was killing me.

This time I take my baggy top and boxy underwear as I went for shower. I'm being careful, just in case, incidents like this morning happens again. Also, because the lock to the bedroom is not working and I don't want anyone to walk in on me with just a towel to cover my body. And definitely not him.

I take a quick shower. When I come out of the bathroom, my bedroom is very empty. "Good" I mutter but I'm disappointed. Why did I hope to see him here? Lying on the bed. Waiting for me.

Raven. Oh, Raven. Wake up.

I shake my head as I climb on the bed and lay on my back. I stare at the white nothingness that covers the ceiling. I blink once. Twice. Then I turn my head to the side and bring my arm out to feel the empty space beside me. I let out a deep breath as I feel all these emotions in me. I pull my arms back to my chest and curl my legs to my body as I lay on my side, facing the empty space.

Sleep Raven. You have a long day ahead tomorrow. Just let go. Let him go. I feel my eyelids heavy so, I close them and lose myself to sleep once more.

"Lucas"

It's like my chant word. I keep on chanting his name every night. Why?

Then I feel the bed dip and something warm pulls my unconscious body towards a warm, solid wall. It smells nice so much like him. It wraps itself around me and engulfs me in its scent. I can feel the zing of current flowing everywhere. I'm at pure bliss. I want to open my eyes, but I can't. They are heavily laced with sleep. So, I just lay there and breath the intoxicating scent into my lungs until they can't anymore.

I think I'm dreaming about him again. It feels so real though. So very real. I think I snuggle closer to him. But I don't care. I'm dreaming. Only in my dreams, I can be truly with him. Here, he belongs to me. Only me.

"Lucas"

"Koraki."

I swear that he responded me this time. But he had never done it before. All this has made me lose myself. Even my vague dream feels this real. But dream is where Raven escapes reality. And Raven can't live in reality. Reality hurts Raven's heart. But dreams hurt Raven's reality. Raven's hurting anyways.

Let me hurt by myself in my dreams so I don't worry anyone. It's better this way. I'll live my dream as if it was my reality. Maybe it won't hurt as much to think like this. He is here with me. In my dreams. And that is enough for me. Enough for Raven.

I feel tears run over my nose and onto the other eyes. Even in my dream, I cry. But this is my safe haven. I can cry. I can hold him. I can love him.

"I love you."

"Lucas"