hurt myself by hurting you~ jiara

the idea

The next morning the bed was empty. Jj wasn't there anymore and I began to panick, hoping he didn't leave again like he did before

I quickly stood up walking out, and then my body relaxed seeing him with pope

"Morning kie!" Sarah shouted
"Can we like talk?" She dragged me into her room

"Why now? I just stood up-" I whined

"I think we need to talk about you and jj" she smiled pecked me

"There's nothing to talk about sarah" I replied annoyed

"We had this conversation again and you told me about your feelings! I THOUGHT YOU WOULD DO SOMETHING-" Sarah replied

"SHHHH" I whispered
"I did something- I broke things with pope of- and now I isn't really the best timing for it Sarah"

"Yesterday jj had a panick attack again" I explained

"Why didn't you told us?" Sarah asked worried

"You were sleeping, and I don't think jj would like it if they're were 5people around him while he just sits there weakly" I answered

"Rigth" Sarah whispered
"Is he gonna be ok?" She added

"I hope so" i signed

"Hey- if it is about Veronica, tell him I'm about to break things of with her" she said and walked out

I looked back at her before she disappeared in the living room. I was confused first but then I didn't care about Veronica and all, I only cared about jj at the moment.

We ate dinner and watched movies together. And also it was almost Christmas so Sarah and me decided to buy stuff Tomorrow!!
Jj is a grinch... he hates Christmas and I just love making him annoyed by throwing Christmas decorations at him

"My dad just called me" John b said
"He's back in obx and also went to shoupe"
We looked surprised at him

"He told him the truth and ward cameron is getting arrested" he continued

"Thats what he deserves" Sarah said proudly

"Finally!" Pope shouted
"Now we don't need to give up-"
"I'm going to search and find that cross!"

"Pope- common man. Not that again I thought we wanted a peaceful life?" John b. Replied

"A peaceful life? That's what It'll be! We just make a little action out of it" pope smiled

"I mean no one will interrupt us?" He added
And we all slowly nodded in response

"Let's get what we deserve!" John b shouted holding his hands up

"P4L!!!!" Pope, me and sarah screamed
Cleo was cheering with us but jj, yeah- well he just smiled Sadly

We then got interrupted by jjs phone ringing, he looked at it but just hang up noticing that we all looked at him

"Unknown-" he quickly responded

"It looked like a name to me" Pope said
"Not that I care-" he added looking back at us, but we still looked at jj, because he now looked even more hurt

"Hey is something wrong? Who called?" John b asked worried and curious

Jjs face went back up facing us
"I told you I don't know-" he replied shrugging his shoulders.He was holding his phone in my direction until it rang again-

"Luke?" I asked reading the name out loud
He looked at his phone quickly before he hang up again.

"I'll better pick that up" he said walking into the room.I gave a quick worried look at John b and noticed that cleo and sarah also looked worried

~jjs pov~

"Hello?" I asked
"Dad?"

"Don't you ever call me dad again- I swear. Your mother was rigth- your a piece of shit" Luke spoke to himself
"If you ever decide to come back- don't." He added

"You know I don't care about your opinion rigth?" I asked even if it every word made me bleed inside

"I know you do" Luke smirked
"You know your mom is gonna visit me?" He then said

"What?!" I shouted a little to loud

"And do you know who's gonna be here too?" Luke threatened
"Remeber my friend Steven?"
(The one jj shot when he was younger)

"It's funny cause we wanna end what we started boy" Luke laughed
"She just doesn't know"

"And what exactly do you have after it? Your going to jail for good? And veronica- she's gonna be gone again." I asked

"I just wanna take revenge for leaving jj. She deserved more than I could do to her"
"And this time you won't stop me, cause you know the truth about her" Luke laughed

"Would you?" He then asked serious

I didn't answer I was lost in my thoughts

"When does she come?" I asked

"About 3 days" Luke replied
"Why wanna shoot Steven again? Haha cause this time I won't let you do anything"

"See you at your mother's funeral jj." He said coldly and hung up

What the hell am I supposed to do?
Does she even deserve to be saved?
But what am I talking about- it's Sarah's mom. I can't just pretend that I didn't knew he was going to kill her. Goddammit! 
I need to save her.

"Is everything ok?" Kies voice snapped me  out of thoughts

"What?" I asked confused not understanding her at first
"Yeah yeah, I'm fine" I replied after "are you ok" could be the only thing she asked

"What did he tell you?" She asked and the others walked in too

"Just asked where I am" I lied and
She nodded but I knew she didn't believe me

"Hey j- our mom got a ticket to obx, I thought about telling her to stay at the Chateau- but I don't know if you're ok with it" Sarah whispered

My face opened
"What? Sure I am! Tell her to stay there and don't get out-!" I shouted completely fast

"Is something wrong with her going out?"Pope asked

"N-no? She, she just doesn't know much about obx-" I tried to act calm again and push what I said away but I didn't work out

"What are you talking about jj? She lived there for about 12 years." Sarah replied confused

"Rigth-" I laughed
"Just my brain- not working again..." I joked

"Ok- Something's wrong and your not telling us-" Kiara shouted

"Yeah- what did he told you?" Pope asked again

"Nothing-  just where I am and- and"I stopped and thought of an excuse
"And if I'm going back-" I replied

"You want to?" John b asked confused

"Kinda- but just like 5 days..." I replied and I smiled inside because that was easier than I thought-

"Well- we could make a little trip back.. we also need all the tips and advices for finding the cross..." John b replied

"So? Are we going?" Cleo asked

"Who's in?" Pope shouted raisning his finger

"I am." Sarah smiled

"Me too" kie replied

"Me three" I added

"Ok good- let's make us some food and leave!" John b shouted

I lied to them because of veronica- I can't believe I did..