Why is my heart beating so fast?
Why do I feel tears form in my eyes?
Why is my mouth starting to quiver?
Why am I upset? They're not yelling at me.
These were the questions I asked myself
Only a few years ago
Before I found out.
Before I found out
That it was a fear
I wasn't born with,
But a fear that you caused.
I am now scared of loud voices
Because of the constant one you used.
I am now scared of anger
Because it is all I remember you showing.
I am now scared to speak up for myself
Because you hated when I did it to you.
Anyways, i just wanted to say, if you are in a situation that is threatening to your stability, do something. I learned too late, and know I'm stuck here writing bad fan fiction and horrible poetry to somehow try to fix my childhood that already ended.
Here are some links and phone numbers to call:
Suicide help line: 988
If you are queer and scared/in a potentially dangerous spot because of it: TheTrevorProject.org
GLAAD resource list: glaad.org/resourcelist
American Phsychological Association, LBBTQ youth Resources: apa.org/pi/lgbt/program/safe-supportive/lgbt
It Gets Better Project: itgetsbetter.org
LGBTQ National help center: glbthotline.org
Affirmation: affirmation.org
Soulforce: soulforce.org
REMEMBER TO DRINK LOTS OF WATER AND EAT
-MiaFlanagan362
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My Random Thoughts
Poetrycompletely random things going on in my life that i need to express - mostly in poetry form (I'm slowly editing and adding poems. I made a majority of these when I was in middle school and had no clue what I was doing. Sorry for that.)
