𝐄𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐋𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫

ⅻⅰ.

SARAIYA CHANEL PALMER
On the patio

I sat on the couch feeling the night breeze blow against my face.

I watched as the sun set, becoming lost in my thoughts.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't hear the door close until I felt someone sit next to me.

I turned to see it was Treshawn, I sighed tucking my knees under my chin.

We sat in silence before he asked me a question.

"Can we talk?" he grabbed my chin so I can look at him.

I pulled out of his grip before answering, "Don't touch me please, and what is there to talk about?" I looked at him.

"What we doing Chanel?" he looked me in my eyes.

"I don't know Treshawn, I just know I'm tired of the lies, the cheating, and the toxic shit" I tried to hold my tears in but failed to.

He wiped my tears before answering "I'm tired of hurting you but this all I know, I never had nobody to show me what love was everyday I watched my mama get abused and cheated on."

"I love you so much my heart hurts but if you don't want to be together I'm okay with it long as you know I'm sorry" he pulled me into hug as I broke down again.

"I love you too Daron, I think we need to spend time learning and loving ourselves so we can love each other correctly."

He nodded before standing up.

"You coming in or you staying out here?" he asked. "I'll come inside in a minute"

He kissed me on my forehead before walking inside leaving me with my thoughts again.

I suddenly had the urge to throw up, rushing to the bathroom before throwing up all the contents.

"Omg baby you okay?" I heard Dess say kneeling beside me and holding my hair.

I halfway nodded laying my head on my arm feeling lightheaded.

"You pregnant Chanel?"

"I don't know, I don't think so or at least I hope not" I said standing up slowly with her help.

She helped me walk to the mirror handing me a toothbrush.

"You want to take a test? you don't have to though."

I nodded grabbing the two tests from her hand. She walked out the bathroom giving me some privacy.

I peed in a cup and stuck the sticks in before setting a 10 minute timer.

I washed my hands as I waited looking at myself in the mirror.

I prayed I wasn't pregnant but if I was I didn't know how I was going to tell Treshawn.

We just decided to break up and now it's a possibility I might be pregnant.

I walked out the room seeing Dess pacing.

"Not you pacing" I chuckled because she usually is the calm one.

"Girl how can I be calm and I might have a niece or nephew on the way"

We jumped when we heard the timer go off, we looked at each other before looking to the bathroom.

"Can you look Dess I'm scared as fuck" I said trying to stop my knees from buckling.

She nodded walking into the bathroom.

I watched her face but it held a blank expression. "What does it say?" I nervously asked.

"My baby is having a baby" she said tears rolling down her face.

I stood there shocked till she walked over to me and pulled me into a hug.

"Are you going to tell Treshawn?" she looked at me.

"I think I want to wait till I go to the doctors just incase." I mumbled.

"And that's fine you don't gotta rush especially for his funky ass"

"We just broke up so I'm not gonna rush I still need time to think" I told her.

"Welp looks like you can't drink with me anymore" she pouted, smiling when I laughed.

"Hm let's go tell Mia, I know she probably all in Von face right now" I said as we walked to the game room.

"Y'all good lil folks?" Von asked looking at us from his peripherals.

"Is you good?" I asked sitting down.

"I'm coo" he chuckled blowing smoke out his mouth. I waved the smoke away feeling nauseous again.

"You okay?" Mia whispered to me obviously seeing my face scrunched up.

"I'm pregnant" I whispered very lowly so the boys wouldn't hear.

Her eyes widened slightly as her mouth hung open. I laughed before turning back to watch the boys play the game.