Chapter 48

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Alexander pov

I drove after mason to meet him they didn't saw me as I walked in the hospital I walk behind mason slowly as he walked towards his room and opened the door. I saw him turning around as Elazar run in his arms then the door closed

I walk on the other side and sat on the chair and lean on the wall, what should I do ? does he want to see me? last time we saw each other he got angry and left, he didn't forgive me and he has the right to not forgive me I don't deserve it at least not yet

I should go and see him when he's asleep, now that he's awake I can't stay in the hospital beside him, he doesn't want me anymore I fucked up so bad

I'm so happy, when mason told me he is awake, it was the best news I ever heard I couldn't stop the grin on my face but now I'm nervous I need to talk to him or I should just leave he doesn't need me I just saw him from far that's enough

Sighing I stood up and began to walk towards the elevator but Rocco's voice stopped me " where are you going " he asked I turn around keeping my blank face it's been years his my best friend so is mason but I can't let my walls down for him or it's more like I don't want to

" leaving," I said his holding snacks and food in his hands it's for kids I...think

" why? I'm sure you come to see him then why are you leaving " he asked frowning " maybe he doesn't want to see me I think I'm the last person he wants to see, " I said he rolled his eyes " dude, of course, he wants to see you I caught him glancing at the door I knew he was looking for you," he said making give him a small smile

" I don't know, " I said he glared at me " this your last chance to fix everything Alexander don't fuck this up after we leave go and see him, he changed " he frowned looking down
" what do you mean, " I ask he looked up and smirked " find out yourself " he winked then walked in the room

fucking asshole

sighing I sat back on the chair far from his room after a little while I saw them waking out his room Elazar looks happy his smiling widely I have never seen him like this, of course I didn't, when Elliot got into accident I met him

the hospital is now silent I just can hear the nurses talking and going to see patients sighing I stand up and walk towards his room I turn the kno...

" sir where are you going the visiting hours are over " I turn around and saw the same nurse I have seen in two months her eyes widen and she smile when she recognized me

I nod my head and walk in his room quietly the room is dark I look out the window it's a little dark I look down at him his back is towards me he's asleep sighing in relief I walk towards him

I look down at him his hair is longer now and over his eyes, his jaw is now covered with his stubble smiling slowly I reached my hand and touched his soft locks

" After two months of waiting I thought maybe I could see you with your eyes open but I can't let it happened I made a lot of mistakes and one of was that I hurt you and I can never forgive myself, I'm sorry for everything I did, you won't see me anymore, I love you so much " I whisper to him and leaned down to kiss his head

Swallowing I pulled myself and my hand away looking at him for the last time I turned around

" don't go "I heard his said than he tugged my sleeve I turned around to face him " wha..i..um..you "I shutter he chuckled He looks different completely different even his chuckle changed

" I didn't know Alexander knight can shutter, " He said in amusement I give him a small smile sigh

" you were leaving me after you promising not to do it again," He said his voice cracked and cold as the same time he didn't use his soft voice like he always did but his expression didn't change it's same like he's always with me but why his voice he pulled his hand away as I lower my head

" I'm sorry I know I promised but it's my fault that you got in a car crash I hurt you a lot and you can't forgive m.. " he cut me off " I forgive you "

what the f- I looked at him shocked what changed, is he okay? I opened my mouth and closed again I don't know what to say I'm happy but at the same time sad I don't deserve his forgiveness I didn't earn it

" We both made lots of mistakes we both are guilty first you didn't hear me out and I just left I could have just come to you and sort things out we are stubborn Kings " he smirked at his last word

I sigh he took my hand and kissed back if my hand

" I think I hurt you more than you did I was hurting way before you come to my life Alex but I'm glad I have you it's my fault I did everything I hurt lots of people some who cared about me and mostly I hurt myself " he stopped and sighed

" I just want to say I don't care you how many times but you can hurt me thousand times, I won't leave you alone you're stuck with me, I'm sorry, forgive me," he said pulling me towards him

I still don't know what to say what happened to him why is he blaming himself for all of this he didn't do anything his hiding again shutting himself out even from me now

" lay with me " he whispered shutting his eyes he's tired he still needs to heal sighing I took my jacket and shoes off before laying next to him

" Don't blame yourself please I.. " he cut me off again " just..just hold me please " he whispers moving closer to me and laid his head on my chest I shut my eyes and pulled him, even more, closer to me

" I missed you so much you have no idea Elli I love you so much," I said placing a small kiss on his forehead he didn't say anything but I know he heard me and didn't say it back












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