Mine

Chapter 36

Sorry for grammatical errors I wrote the last two chapters fast and didn't check at all

Alexander pov

I don't know how I feel right now, it's so many emotions hurt, anger and happiness

I'm happy because Elliott finally accepted me, I didn't feel like a scary gang leader when I was with him I felt like a 20-year-old guy a normal person I was so lost in his arms he made me happy I felt loved for once

I'm hurt, again he hurt me I don't know what to do I feel like being ripped apart from inside I heard what he said he told me not to leave him or he will lose himself but he got a woman pregnant he will leave me for them, I'm nothing to him

I'm angry I want to hurt him so badly for hurting me I know I'm being harsh but it hurts he made me feel like I'm nothing I was so happy when we connected but then it vanished like always I can't be happy it's my fate or luck that I don't deserve happiness

He begged me to believe him and I do because he slept in my club with her I was looking at him when he flirted with her still I'm angry at him because in the end I'm alone again like always and fuck around but I didn't want this I want Elliot his mine only mine no one else's

I look at my reflection on the broken mirror I look like a broken guy I was before, dried tears on my cheek my eyes red, chuckling I drank the glass of whiskey in my hand and threw it on the ground it broke into pieces like me

I will hurt him like he hurt me so many times, I will make his pain more painful then it is I once told him I will heal him but now I won't I will shatter his heart into pieces like this glass smirking I got up fuck I feel dizzy I held my hand on the wall once a glass is broken it won't be the same again and the prices will always hurt

I love him but he just used me was I just a sex toy but he told me I'm important to him more than anything then why he told me I'm amazing then why he told me I'm beautiful then why he told me I'm his and he's mine then why

" why Elliot why " I screamed and punched the wall why why why I don't deserve this all I wanted was him, I would leave this gang for him if he wanted, I would have do anything for him

" Alexander stop I said stop your hurting yourself, " someone said I turned around and saw Rocco " hey Rocco I missed you, " I said laughing he held my face " are you drunk," he asked slapping me in the face I opened my eyes

" no, maybe, yes I don't know, " I said shutting my eyes again they are tired why " what the hell happened to you, everything was fine this morning," he said I chuckle now I remember he didn't come to the meeting because he wasn't feeling well

" let me think....ahh Elliot happened, " I said as he sat me on the chair and give glass water " what did he do," he asked sitting on the bed and held his head

" he got that girl what was her name ahh Isa she's fucking pregnant with his baby," I said drinking the water I wish it was whiskey " what, when did this happen and how did you find out," he asked making me smirk

" yep, you know that night when he come to the club with mason then he went upstairs, he had sex with her and surprise I find out after he fucked me, " I said his eyes widen and he started coughing " what the fuck you never let anyone top you," he said putting his hand on his heart

" I gave him my ass virginity because I love him I fucking love him so much Rocco but he hurt me so bad and I want to hurt him too I want him to feel the heartbreak too I feel like I'm being choked I can breathe he begged me to believe him and he doesn't love her it was a mistake, " I said looking down as tears fell down on the floor

" Alex he didn't mean it if he hadn't had feeling for you he wouldn't have slept with you, Elliot is strong and cold, he wouldn't ever beg someone to believe him but he begged you because he cares about you, he cares about how you think about him, don't do this to him don't break him, I don't know what happened to him in the past and recent but I know that he's already broken don't break him more than he already is because later no one can ever put him together and heal him," he said sighing I nod

But I'm still angry at him I won't forgive him so easily I want him to earn my trust and me again

Rocco's phone rang I look up and wipe my tears he answered and held it on his ear " hallo...yes I'm...where is he...I'm on my way " he said hanging up " what happened " I ask standing up

" mason is in the hospital he got shot, " Rocco said panicked and run his hand over his hair

" let's go," I said

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