The Dark Ages Volume 1 [ Formerly "A Sideways Plummet"]

Joker

I'm laughing on the outside but I'm in crying on the inside. My bright smile covers the self hate and pain. You built my confidence then let it crumble. I am a joke. To think that I looked ok. Ha. I'll never look ok. Your words

Don't hurt because I torture myself with those same words every day. I laugh and laugh at pain. I'm laughing on the outside but I'm crying on the Inside. I laugh at pain with others like me. We all think we are

Happy but deep down inside we know we are not. We laugh at pain. We laugh on the outside and cry on the Inside. We know are just the weirdos and the outcasts. We laugh and we laugh at out pain in the end the

When the laughter leaves the thoughts of self hate Settle in. And then we cry out pain out. The next day we do the same thing. We sit apart from the normal and we take our temporar cure. We laugh our pain away for

We know that later it will come back. Laughter is like a drug. Once it's gone your pain is back. We are the jokers we laugh on the outside but we hurt on the inside. We feel like a bunch of drunken sailors as we

Laugh our pain out. We tear, tears if laughter and we slap our knees. We are jokes. We are pain. As we laugh on the outside we cry on the Inside. When the jokers depart. The pain comes back.

We are laughing on the outside but we are crying on the Inside.