Destiel (Highschool AU) I Like You...a Lot

Chapter 30

*self harm warning*

Castiel's P.O.V. 

i run upstairs to the bathroom but was stopped by gabe

"cassie? what's wrong?" 

"nothing...just leave me alone"

he grabs my wrist but i jerk him away 

"I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE!!" i scream at him

he looked broken

but he let me go

i run into the bathroom and open the drawer 

and see what i am looking for

i haven't used it in so long

but boy i have thought about it

 but it was dean who made me forget it

who made me want to stop

but now deans gone

hes not mine anymore

he never was

and that hurts

i need to take that pain away

i grab the razer and slice a cut into my arm

blood trickles from my arm

but i keep going

i slice another one

and another one

deeper and deeper on each one

until i start feeling dizzy at the loss of blood

i see the pool of blood around me 

have i gone to far?

it doesn't matter

why should i care?

 my heart is broken

i have nothing special in my life anymore

i just want the pain to end

all of it

i just want it to end

i start to see little black dots cover up my vision 

and soon all i see is darkness

only hearing a faint screaming in the distance

until 

nothing

Lisa's P.O.V. 

i can't believe this

i made this happen

this is all my fault

what am i doing!?!?

we need to get him to a hospital

"Dean we need to get him to a hospital, NOW!!" i yell at him urgently 

but it's like he doesn't hear me all he keeps doing is staring at castiel with a blank expression on his face

"dean!!" i try and yell one more time

i pull on his shoulder and snap him out of it

suddenly deans brother sam comes out from behind me

he must have seen what happened

he grabs dean by the arm and tugs him down so hes eye to eye with sam