How Can You the Agony of Heart

Painful Time

Standing outside of the I.C.U, he was deeply engrossed in praying for Hoor ul Ain's life and safety. After two hours of long-awaited time, the door of the emergency ward opened.

And a doctor came out with a tired-looking face. After seeing the doctor, he immediately ran to him.

"Doctor....ho... how's Hoor ul Ain...."

"Sorry young man, we try our best but she had gone into a coma, because of more mental pressure...."

The doctor's words were dropped on him like a bomb blast, which had destroyed him completely.

"Wh..... what she will not open her eyes now....."

Right now his voice seems to be like coming out of a deep well. The doctor after looking at his face turned yellow, sadly. And said to him in hopefulness.

"No doubt, her condition is very critical, if God wills, she will surely come back to life, Mr. Shanzal, for now, we can't say anything, whether she will be alive or not, but hope for the best. Maybe, your prayers and our efforts will bore fruits with the passage of time...."

After completing his talk, the doctor didn't stand and left. But Shanzal Ali Shah was on the verge of destruction. His craziness will result in such a great loss, that he never thinks of it even in his imagination.

Now, he will confront her family, what he will say to them....? How he will justify his torture, what he will say in front of him, will he says to her that because of some misunderstanding, he kidnapped her, and made her state like this.....?

"Ufff..... they can't even imagine that destroying their lives was no one but I, ohh my God, what I had done this, why I became blind to not inquire about the reality and destroyed the life of an innocent and happy girl, why.....?"

In his restless state, he squeezes his hair and shouted loudly. On his shouting, whether Hoor ul Ain's closed eyes were going to open.

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Moments were turning into hours, hours into days, and days into weeks. But Hoor ul Ain state was not getting better. The marks of brutality made by him on her fragile body in his furious state were to some extent recovered. But her eyes were still closed.

The spark of life has ended in an instant. He forgets everything even to laugh and eat. The tragedy of Hoor ul Ain has subsided enough the shock of his father's death.

Wake up at 9 o clock in the morning, going to the office without taking breakfast, and at lunchtime going to the hospital to see Hoor ul Ain, then spending more than two to three hours in the office, and sitting with Hoor ul Ain bed and talking with her late at night has become routine of him now.

Her father Colonel Khalid Rehmani has also lost his life while mourning the separation of Hoor ul Ain. And the death of her father has led him to fall into the ocean of guilt and remorse.

He was not getting how he will inform the Hoor ul Ain family about her. As they were already suffering enough. How can he further make an addition to their Miserables and sufferings? Thinking about it day and night has made him feel he was getting mad.

It was evening time, and he without taking care of what was happening outside, was sitting with her and slowly running his fingers in her hair, while murmuring very slowly.

"Hoor ul Ain..... for God's sake, open your eyes.... looking into my guilty-stricken eyes....then if you want you can distance me from your life, but please....... for once tell me, that you have forgiven me...."