Elayne
Trigger warning
This story includes depression, suicidal thoughts, self harm, nightmares, hallucinations, cheating and other such intense subjects.
When a loved one dies, many people find themselves feeling lost and miserable. However, for th...
I could never imagine a scenerio like this. The worst things in my mind are coming to my re - I opened my eyes hearing a large knock on my door. "Was that a nightmare?" I sat on my bed, clueless for a while. Eventually I got up and opened the door. "Are you okay ?" Lola asked me as she noticed my puffy eyes and drained face. "I'm okay", a faint smile formed on my lips. It's been a year since I've seen him. We haven't talked too. But, everything still reminded me of him. Nowadays, I dwell myself reading books at library. All these fictional characters somehow helps me escape my reality. This is the only thing that makes me excited. It will take another two months for my university to reopen. It's almost like I'm deliberately waiting for it to open. All these feelings in my heart is a bit much for me to deal with... I would want to go to my home and see my mother atleast.
I quickly washed my face, brushed and put on a good outfit. I lazily combed my hair and placed some ice cubes underneath my eyes. "My head still hurts." I groaned. " I noticed your voice last day. You were boiling while sleeping, so I placed a cold cloth on your forehead. Take these pills. " Lola handed some pills towards me.
Well... I love Lola and I'm grateful that she is there to take care of me. I headed to the library and sat on the seat where I usually sit. The smell of the wooden furniture already put me in a good state of mind. I was slowly growing out of my grumpy mood. As I was searching for a good book, my eyes captured something laying on the floor.
A royal blue cover with black borders. "ELAYNE" -She read out the title of the book, slightly widening her eyes. She immediately took the book in her hands and settled back on her seat. She slowly opened the book and smelled the pages. The book seems old but it still had an intoxicating smell. I flipped to the first page and started reading it. .....
"Who in the world wrote this book?"- she rummaged through the pages impatiently. "Great! Of all the books I could choose, I found the one which doesn't even have an author. This guy might be illiterate to write this in future tense." I scratched my head and kept the book aside. "Or was it intentional?" She could feel her gut forcing her to continue reading the book and that's what she did. She spent the whole day reading the strange book. Her brain got too interested in it that she even skipped her meals, keeping her eyes pierced into the book.
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She came back home to Lola, entering the house my slamming the door behind her. A sigh left her mouth as Lola asked her where she was. Lola noticed the giant blue book in her hands which she held a bit tighter towards her sling bag to prevent it from slipping from her hands. Lola hugged her eventhough she couldn't understand what was happening to her these days. She never wanted to make her uncomfortable by asking her anything she wasn't willing to share and hoped that she would eventually open up to her when she's ready.
"Lolahhh... I'm so tired and drained... I'm lost" - she teared up, tightly holding on to Lola.
"Ina... It's okay. I'm here" She held her close to her. She made her cookies and milk.
Closing the door of the bedroom, lola made sure that Ina was asleep.
