The Girl with no Emotions (GirlxGirl)

The Break-Up

I couldn't concentrate all day today, because I have still yet to talk to Camren. I don't know why it's so hard to just say those simple five words, "I'm breaking up with you," but I can't and now it's messing with my sleep and I hate losing sleep.

I rolled over and checked the time, 1:26 AM. "Well might as well get it done and over with."

I grabbed my phone and sent Camren a text. Hopefully she won't talk long, because I hate texting or talking for a long period of time.

Me: Hey I need to talk to you sometime tomorrow

Camren: Yeah sure? Is everything ok?

Me: Yeah, now I'm getting some sleep see you tomorrow.

Camren: Ok I'll see you tomorrow...... I love you

I left it at that and put my phone down and turned over to go to sleep, but not without feeling that horrible feeling in my stomach. It's worse than feeling that warm feeling.. It was guilt and it sucks. I mean I don't know why I feel guilty, but if  I remember what my therapist said when I was younger, about trying to understand what others feel than guilt is, I think the right feeling I feel, because I liked someone else while still dating her.

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"Ava wake up! You're gonna be late!" Gosh why is she so loud in the mornings. "I'm not going to say it again!"

"I'm getting up. Now quit nagging." I said to my mom. 

"Watch your tone." she yelled

I checked the time and saw I had about 30 minutes to get ready. I got up and went to the bathroom and on cue in come Red.

"I still don't see how you know when I'm going to the bathroom you weird dog." Red like usual just sighed and laid down until I was finished. I got up flushed the toilet and washed my hands and continued getting dressed.

"Since I'm running late can I drive to school?" I asked walking into the kitchen and to my surprise I saw Camren sitting at the table talking with my dad. Why is she here? And in my house?

"That's not necessary since Camren here is kindly taking you today." My mom smiled.

"Yeah don't worry Mrs. H I got this." Camren said smiling.

"That's good to here! Now hurry and get to school."

I mentally sighed and grabbed my back and followed Camren out of the house and got in her car. The drive to school was quiet, which was strange. She pulled into the parking lot and parked the car and turned it off. I was fixing to get out when I noticed Camren just sitting there staring in front of her.

"Camren let's go to class." I said getting out but she stopped me.

"No not yet. I wanna have that talk you wanted." she said turning her head and looking at me with a sad expression. I guess I might as well get it over with.

"I'm breaking up with you." I said without a second thought getting in the way.

Tears slowly streamed down her face and she turned looking straight in front of her again. I felt that guilty feeling again. I have to apologize, but apologies make me uncomfortable. But I'm going to have to do it.

"I am sorry. It's just that I don't love you the same way you love me."

She dried her tears and half smiled, "Yeah I know." Wait she knows? "I also know that you liked Ella ever since I first got here and when I carried you to your room the other night and saw crumbled drawings of her on your floor. I mean it was pretty obvious. I didn't see how you didn't notice."