My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter 45

I feel like I waited all my life for Jax to ask me to be his girlfriend and I let both of us down by saying no. I had my reasons but now sitting next to him on the bed as we awkwardly put our shoes on, I couldn't find any reason.

We hadn't uttered a word since I said no and the tension had begun to rise between us. Standing up, I brush my sweaty hands on my sweatpants and clear my throat.

"Uhm," I begin to say.

"Don't," Jax avoids looking up at me as he ties his shoes. "Just don't."

"Jax, let me explain." I say. "I have my reasons."

"I just don't understand why we did this." He points between us.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean..." He sighs. "Why go through all this trouble hiding from Hunter and me confessing my feelings for you and then I ask you to be my girlfriend and you say no. Why? You not only wasted my time but yours."

"There's just so much going on in my life already. I didn't need...I don't know I guess-"

"You didn't need me as a problem in your life either." He interrupts me. "I get it."

"What? No, gosh no. I don't know it all sounded better in my head."

"Then say yes." He gets off the bed and walks over to me. Cupping my cheek, he looks between my eyes and lips.

"Jax," I let out a breath.

"Just say yes."

Just as I was about to give him an answer, my phone rings from my pocket, jolting us away from each other. Jax glares at my phone as I take it out of my pocket and look down at it.

Hunter: Come home.

Why? I quickly reply.

He answers back within seconds.

Hunter: Dad and I talked about Joyce. You should come so we could talk.

On my way. I answer back.

"I have to go." I put my phone back in my pocket and look up at Jax.

"Awesome." He mutters. "Come on, I'll take you."

"No, it's okay." I shake my head. "I'll take the bus."

"It's fine," He grabs his phone and keys from the top of his drawer and walks out of his room.

Following close behind, we walk down the stairs in silence. As we see Amanda on the couch eating popcorn while watching a movie Jax gives her a kiss on the forehead.

"I'll be back," He tells her. "Don't open the door for anyone I have my keys."

She waves us goodbye and we leave the house, quickly get into his car and making our way to my house.

"Jax," I start. "I want to be with you."

"Here comes the but." He says.

"I'm scared." I respond in a low voice.

"Of what?" He glances at me. "Of me? Because you know I'd never do anything to hurt you."

"Not of you just of your actions. I don't want it to be another Alex situation where you cheat and I take you back because I'm blinded by my feelings. I don't want to be mistreated."

Jax slowly presses down on the break and pulls over onto the side of the street. He looks over at me and shakes his head.

"Alex cheated on you?"