im not strong
and im tired of pretending to be
im not happy
and no matter how hard i try to be
im not
i prefer to just blame it on my depression
but before even tho i had depression you couldn't tell
and back then i didn't always have to pretend to be happy
but this past few years i could see me falling in deeper
and now i don't know how to get out
before i never took my antidepressants because i didn't need them
and because i was afraid if i took them
one day i won't be able to live without them
because i saw my mother take so many and she never got better
the doctors always changed her medicine but still none worked
and when she ran out of medicine she looked really sick
without those medicines my mother couldn't go on
i didn't want that
i thought i could fix myself without medicine
but now i don't know how
and im sick of pretending to be ok
so tho i don't show you how i feel
im anything but ok
so don't say ill be fine
just because you can't see
i wish it was that simple
YOU ARE READING
To You
Poetry"love balances on a small line something so small can break it the love changes without a warning and you ask yourself when did it really start to break"
