Chapter 11 - I Hate Myself

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Autumn North

I felt someone carresing me , I opened my eyes slowly and saw Morris laying beside me. My eyes widen and he smiled as he caressed my cheek

"What the heck are you doing?" I asked

"Watching you sleep"

"Morris it's creepy" I said and lifted my head a little to see if Joan is here

"They're all go to buy dinner and some board games" He said and I sighed in relief

"What if someone walk in?" I said

"You're afraid getting caught?" He asked and I turned to him disbelief

"Okay.. since no one isn't here. Let's talk about this" I said and he moved closer to me until our distance is so close

"Talk about what?" He slipped his hand to my waist

"This thing.. the kiss , the clingy you.." I said and it's a little bit awkward to talk about this

"I don't know , I felt this thing since 2 weeks ago" He said and I raised my eyebrows

"2 weeks ago?"

"When we went to that event and you wore that beautiful white dress , you look fricking beautiful and I felt weird since that. I can't take my eyes of you and I'm trying to hold everything in place until this trip. I can't.." He said honestly and we both looked at each other

He leaned to me until our nose touch , he looked at my lips again and again. It's like he's holding it so hard. I felt like we're two different magnet that is trying hard not to be attach

He caught my lips with his and we both immediately kiss roughly. He pushed me until he lay on top of me. I put my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me and I turned my body to make him on the bottom.

"Where do you think you're going?" He said pulling me more when I'm trying to stop

"Stop.. someone might walk it" I said between kisses

"I locked the door" He got up and sat on the bed but we still going. He pulled me until I sat on his lap. I circled my legs on his waist and he put his hands around my body pulling me close. He lifted my shirt a little bit until his hands met my bare skin making me shiver

"No no no" I felt so wrong until I stopped

"Why stop?" He asked and I looked at him disbelief

"We can't be like this" I said trying to get off him. He looked at my clevage and I flicked my fingers in front of his eyes

"Why can we?" He asked

"You're doing this because this attraction Morris , do you know what attraction is?" I asked

"Of course I know" He chuckled

"I don't want that.. it will lead to something not good. I don't want that in our relationship so let's stop this" I said

"Why not?"

"Why not? Do you want to be friends with benefits?" I asked and he looked at me blankly

"I don't want that Morris except if you want to have a real relationship with me" I said and he looked away

I know he doesn't want that , I know him too good. I know everything.. He wants to settle down at 30ish not now so never even think about real relationship with him right now cause he won't want it

"Can we just kiss?" He asked

"No" I shook my head

"Come on Autumn , you're lying if you don't feel that" He said

"I felt it and I don't want it to continue if it will end soon. We're practicly a family Morris , I don't want to have an awkward relationship or a bad one because you literally my everything in this family" I said and he nodded

"Do you think we can resist this?"

"Yeah" I nodded

"Maybe you can but I'm not" He said honestly and I looked at him disbelief

"Let's don't do it again" I felt weird when I said I don't want it. To be honest , I want it. He's a good kisser , addicting , handsome and not to mention that he always there for me. This points can make me fall in love so bad for him

I need to avoid it before it happens

"Give me one more and I'll stop" He said and I raised my eyebrows

"I don't believe you"

"Oh come on Autumn , you and I both know we want this right?" I looked away biting my lips.. How am I going to-

"Never bite your lips again because it's sexy" He said that and he kissed me again. He laid me on the bed and kissed me hard and rough. He slowly went to my ear and then went down to my neck

"Morris" I whispered and he went back to my lips again. I cupped his face and kissed him deeper. This made me needy and clingy , I bet this. He pulled my short sleeve revealing my shoulder.. he trailed small kisses and I can't help but moaned

"Morris stop" I said but he kept going and going , he went back to my lips again kissing me so hard until he suddenly stop

He looked into my eyes..

"That's how hungry I am about you" He said in a really husky tone

"You're crazy"

"I don't mind doing this all day" He smirked and I shook my head

"Of course you are"

"Their home" Suddenly he said and my eyes widen

"Get off me" I pushed him but he didn't budge a bit

"One more time" He gave me a really short kiss and he got up from my bed

"I bet this won't stop Autumn.. prepare for more" He warned.. what?!

"Damn it!" He's a really good kisser.. I hate myself right now

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