Overdose || Jung Hoseok Hurtfic || Completed

Overdose

It was morning, the famous group BTS was getting ready for another photo shoot. Hoseok was in their bathroom, staring at his replica in the mirror. He always got insecure about how he looks, he always read the comments about them, and he always reads the hate comments about him.

He opened his drawer and took out pills, happy pills

"I need to be.. positive today!" he smiled and swallowed three pills, he needed to, he's known as the sunshine of the group. He can't be gloomy, not at all

"J-hope hyuuung! We gotta go!" Jimin's voice rang out

"Coming!" Hoseok puts the container back and locks his drawer, he looks at himself once again and goes outside

"Did you take a dump hyung?" Jungkook cackled

"Want me to dump you?" Hoseok jokingly asked and chuckled

"We're all here? Good, let's go"

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It was the middle of the photo shoot, Hoseok's feeling great! Those pills were really helpful

The vocal-line was their time to shoot, the three sat down

"Aish I'm tired" Yoongi complained then laid on the grass

"Yah Suga, the stylist will be mad if you ruin your outfit" Namjoon said

"And you're always tired you know" Hoseok added, he laughed and threw himself to Namjoon

"Yah! Oh right, we still got dance practice right?" Yoongi groaned more, more work

Hoseok spaced out, he forgot they have practice as well today, those three pills won't be enough!

He stood up

"Hope?" The two looked at the dazed off rapper

"I'm going to the restroom" he said and hurriedly walked to the restroom

Shit shit shit! I don't have my pills with me, what the hell do I do?!

He looked through his bag, he hasn't cleaned it in a while, he was sure he left a container there.

He sighed in relief and took out another container of pills

How many do I need? Three again? No.. five..?

There were 13 pills left there

He didn't hesitate, he swallowed all of them

"Mfh!" He stopped himself from throwing up, he felt his tears form

I need to do this.. I need to..

They were on their way to the studio, they were all tired but still got a full schedule ahead of them

Hoseok was feeling light headed, he was just quiet on the corner

Isn't this supposed to work? Why.. why the hell do I feel worse?!

They went to their studio and started to practice their choreography, Hoseok was leading them as usual

"There's a lot of jumping in this part, so be careful alright?"

"Okay Hope hyung!"

"Mhm"

There was a lot of jumping and travelling, which Hoseok loved but at this time he didn't like at all.

Eventually his world started to spin, he kneeled down panting hardly

"J-hope?" Namjoon went to him "you alright?"