PansMione one shots ¦WLW¦

Secret love song

summary: Black magic's "secret love song" somehow connected to Hermione's situation in Hogwarts.

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Hermione's POV

It was the winter holidays, and I was in my parents' muggle house. While lying on my bed, I remembered the phone they'd given me for my 16th birthday. I grabbed the phone from the small cabinet beside my bed and turned it on. As I was scrolling, I accidentally turned on the music and 'Secret Love Song' by Little Mix and Jason Derulo started playing.

As I listened to the song and carefully analyzed the lyrics, I found myself relating to them. 

While the song plays and the lyrics cut deep, I couldn't help but think of Pansy. She was so confident and happy with Draco, but not with me. I was her true lover, her girlfriend. In the eyes of the world though, Draco was her lover too.

The thought was like a dagger to my heart, but it was a pain I had felt many times before. Despite being the smartest wizard of my time, I still felt helpless as I listened to the song.

I could sense Draco and Pansy together in my mind. They seemed happy and free. Everything I wanted with her. I tried to force it from my mind, but it only made it worse. That thought only brought back more of the same pain and heartbreak I felt again and again. My mind and heart felt like a jumbled mess, just like all the time I spent thinking and yearning for her.

This was the first time I ever cried over these thoughts, and I couldn't stop the flood of tears from coming.

As I lay there in silence, I suddenly heard the sound of an owl. It was the first time in months that I'd heard one outside my window. The owl delivered a letter addressed to me. I didn't know who it was from at first until I saw the signature: Pansy Parkinson. My heart started beating rapidly as I opened the envelope and read the letter inside. Just hearing from her made me so happy, but I felt scared to read what she had to say.

As I read her letter, my eyes scanned each word.

"Hermione,

I've been thinking of you a lot these past few months. It's been tough being away from you, and I'm not as happy without you in my life. I can't wait until we're together again, but I know it's still a while until that will happen. In the meantime, know that I miss and care for you very much. I hope we can make up for lost time when you come home.

 With love, Pansy"

As the letter came to an end, my heart filled with excitement and joy. I couldn't help but smile as I read the words over again, soaking in the feeling of her love. It was like getting a warm hug from someone you haven't seen in a while. It was a comforting feeling knowing that she was thinking of me too. My spirits lifted as I folded the letter and put it back in the envelope. I knew the wait would be tough, but it had become so much sweeter knowing that Pansy was thinking of me too.

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After the winter break ended and the first day of the new semester began, it was time to go back to Hogwarts. As the carriage drove through the gates, I felt a rush of excitement as I thought about seeing Pansy again. It had been months since we had spent any significant time together, but it felt like just yesterday. I was eager to see how much she had grown and changed in my absence. As the carriage came to a stop, I stepped off, anxious and excited to see Pansy again.

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Harry, Ron, and Ginny gathered around Hermione for dinner that evening. 

"So how was the Christmas break?" Harry asked.

 "It was good," Hermione responded, "but I'm glad to be back."

 "Me too," Ron agreed, "there's nothing like Hogwarts, is there?" As they continued eating, Ginny asked another question, "so, what have you been up to over break?"