... When you have always been in love with your dad's best friend who ends up being something from a fantasy books
... Who shows you that the world is much darker and dangerous thn you always thought. That nothing is how it looks
... That your frie...
He left for a business trip without telling me all true and Mia covered for him. I get that they are family but why lie?
It was too much when I saw a picture of him and Jess at some bar with drinks in their hands both smiling happily so I locked myself in the apartment for a few days after seeing that picture. Was I losing him to some old friend? Or there was something more between them?
The day he was coming back I locked myself in our girl's room with my pill collection, thinking would it be bad if I kill myself? What was the point of living when I couldn't even kiss my husband without seeing a man who destroyed me? And he looked so happy with Jess, there wasn't enough space left for me...
I fell asleep while holding one of the big teddy bears. I finally was at peace with the world...
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-What did you do? -I heard yelling.- How many did you take? Look at me, please don't do this to me.
-Two. That's safe.-I whispered.- I just wanted to sleep without thinking.
-Focus on me and swear that you didn't try to kill yourself.
-I wanted but I didn't. -After a few tries I managed to look at him.
-Why on earth did you do something this stupid?
-You and Jess look perfect together and I was just jealous but it's okay, I get that you don't want someone like me anymore.
-Are you crazy? Me and Jess? We are just friends.
-I saw you two all happy, smiling, drinking.- I said but refused to get up so he sat down next to me.- It's okay, she is pretty and smart and not broken like me.
-Here look.- He said showing his phone.- This is Jess's husband, he was with us too. They sold one of their property to me for a personal project and I kept this from you because this was supposed to be a surprise. I wanted to do something nice for you.
-What?
-I would never cheat on you, and I know that you wouldn't cheat on me, at least not willingly. How many times do I have to tell you this? I love you and only you. And if you're broken I'll gladly spend all my life trying to fix you.
I felt so stupid that I lost my sane mind over a picture. He didn't do anything bad to lose my trust, he just took a photo with his friend who was a woman. He sat way too close to her for my liking and I assumed there was something between them. Even after apologizing I still wanted to do something nice for him but he was first to offer dinner plans.
-Can we go out instead? - I asked getting a strange look from him.- Not to eat but just go out.
-Anything you want, but let me change. You should too or you're going out in fluffy slippers when it's minus ten outside.
Thanks to all these running and pushing people I was literally glued to his arm. I wasn't ready to deal with something like this late at night but I wanted to see how far I could go in a situation like this, I was tired of sitting at home and ordering everything online.
