obbsession -JJK

chapter 18 :

jungkook just sat there
he stared at the 16 year olds lifeless body
a tear came out of his eyes
he just fucked up
he made the biggest mistake and now was feeling guilty
he quickly got up and got his shirt and covered yn properly
he picked her up in bridal style and ran downstairs
everyone looked at him in shock as he was holding her lifeless body and was grabbing his phone and car keys at the same time
madam jeon: JUNGKOOK WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO HER ? ( she said standing up and started to cry looking at the girl )
she realised that she made the biggest mistake making her jungkooks wife
now she understands
she making her daughter in law go through worser shit than she went-

in the car :
jungkook put the belt on yn and felt her pulse
he couldn't feel it
he panicked and drove faster to the hospital
he didn't want to call a doctor as he wanted to get her properly checked
for once he was crying his eyes out
the heartless mafia in him was fading for his wife
it all happened cause of him
"the abused became the abuser"
he ran in the hospital with his wife in his arms
everyone just stared at the mafia king in tears
the doctors and the nurses came and put yn on a bed
they took her in the emergency department
jungkook just sat
he was just praying
for the first time he was praying to god
as he had his head down
he heard his mother screaming with grandma and junsoo coming towards him

Jungkook pov :
there was too much happening in my head
my wife , my unborn child
the mafioso and the gangs
i couldn't take it all in
i grew up to fast , i didn't want this
"all i wanted was love"
it's not so hard to love
is it?
i did nothing wrong , why did i get punished then
i try my best
nothing works
i feel like i'm about to die
i looked around and saw eomma , grandma and junsoo mouthing me something angrily
that's when i knew something isn't right
i had this ringing noise through my head
i looked down and saw blood coming through my nose
i tried to hear what they were saying
there was so much going on
i looked around but it all turned black..

3 weeks later :
madam jeon is in yns room crying on her lap
yn woke up 2 weeks ago but she was extremely weak
madam jeon was crying as he was gone
yn sat there trying her best not to cry
she felt so bad for madam jeon
she thought she was at fault
jungkook fell in to a coma for 3 weeks and didn't wake up
there was no reaction or movement
they thought he was brain dead
junsoo asked yn to go to jungkook just for a bit but she was too scared
she couldn't handle anything , madam jeons cries were to precious

yn pov :
should i just go and sit in his room ?
everytime i look at myself i want to cry
everytime i look at my self
i just see scars
it always reminds me of how he tortured me
i still have my six month baby with me
he really is a survivor
i looked at my belly to see 
he's been growing allot
thank god
atleast he is showing so movement
his father hasn't been moving at all
my mood swings were all over the place i didn't even know what to do
fuck this i'm going
i stormed out of my room and barraged into jungkooks cabin
all i saw was wires and a heartbeat machine
i sat right next to him and tapped him lightly
i was getting really grumpy
"can you fucking get up"
"u bastard i know u can hear me get up"
still no movement
that's when i put his hand on my stomach confidently and then i felt something
i thought it was jungkook
it wasn't jungkook
it was my baby kicking me for the first time
and then suddenly jungkooks finger moved slightly
WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING
I THINK IN GOING CRAZY
I HATE PREGNANCY
WHY ARE MY OWN MOODS PISSING ME OFF
i felt his hand moving on my belly slowly rubbing it
i looked at him and flinched and stood up instantly
he was looking right at me with the oxygen mask on his mouth
he stared at me so happily
if eyes could speak emotions then he is doing it right now  
i quickly ran out the room
i need to humble myself 
the doctors ran in as i was going to the exit of hospital
i was literally walking in a hospital gown on the road
i knew that i just left the hospital without jungkooks permission
SHIT
SHITT
SHITTT
IM SO FUCKING STUPID , I JUST RECOVERED AND I THINK I WANT BEATS AGAIN
Oh well , im just getting bubble tea
oh how much i had been craving this for 6 months
just wait 3 months and you can breathe
after i ordered i sat and got some chicken and chips and some choclote dip from the dessert shop down the road
don't aske me where i got this money from ?-
i got my bubble tea and food
and started to eat
i knew i was weird when i dipped chocolate in my wings and chips
it actually tasted nice
 

i know i may look happy right now
but deep down i'm just a burnt soul
i wanna die
i just wanna end myself so i don't have to go through this pain
what did i do god that you punish me so much in such a vile human form

yn innerlouge

don't take this seriously it's a ff
i'm sorry if i triugered any of you guys
take care lol-